Mood: Reflective
Listening to: The wonderful sounds of an empty house
Watching: My computer screen

This is my first attempt at a journal, I have a lot of things flying thru my head at the moment and I need to sort them out, being Libran I like to get a bunch of different perspectives as well as the three or four that are floating around in my own noggin.

First of all I would like to send out my thoughts, best wishes and condolences to my wonderful friend Harmony, who lost her grandfather. If you need to talk to someone, I'm here. I still miss mine and he has been gone for a while, grandparents are supposed to be indestructible, at least mine was, then that was shattered in the worst way, I miss him.
I think that at some point we need copious amounts of chockie, ice cream and some 80's movies.
Love to you and your family.

On to my dilemma, as of a couple of months ago I quite my job, I couldn't handle the way my boss treated her employees, including myself and I decided that my stress levels needed to come way down (it tends to stress you out a bit when you are a casual and you don't know if you are going to have a job at the end of the day just cause your boss is in a bad mood) so I quite and devoted myself full time to looking for a new job. I have been for interviews but I have never quite made the cut, my feedback has been good, apparently I interview really well but I just don't have what they are looking for.
Now I have been offered a job, it doesn't start for another month and its working for a good friend of mine, it is something I have always wanted to do and although I will be starting off on a base pay I have the opportunity to get my pay level up. Unfortunately it involves me picking up stakes and moving to Ballerat. I will have to leave a good portion of my friends, my boyfriend and my family to work somewhere that I really wanted to work in an atmosphere I love, with people who I respect.
I don't really want to leave my boyfriend but he has a good job here and he is happy here, his last girlfriend moved away, and it was not good for them, I am just hoping that we can cope with the long distance thing.

This possibly sounds really strange, I am writing as things pop into my head so if I seam a little tangenty I am sorry its the way my brain works.

In my mind I have already made the decision to accept the position, if I don't I will always regret that I didn't take this opportunity, but I don't want to leave........ I am scared, this is a big thing for me, half my life is going right, I hope that in accepting this position, the other half of my life comes good, I also hope that the good half of my life doesn't suffer for it.

Now on to something totally irrelevant, I got tagged

Harmony you will suffer the consequences of your actions

Apparently.......The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic 6 weird habits/things/secrets and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours ....

I don't think I know six people on DA.......

ah well here goes

Six of My Weird Habitual Secret Thingys

1) I am a suger junkie, I have to have something chocolaty or sweet at least twice a day, on some days I am surprised I don't go into a suger induced coma, I eat so much. One of my friends who is diabetic wants to check my blood suger level on her little machine, she thinks that I should have a blood suger of possibly 10 or more with the amount of suger I eat, your supposed to have between 6 & 7.

2) I cannot listen to Enigma's Cross of Changes, I have lost about 3 hours of my life after listening to it, my boyfriend at the time stated that I had a complete personality change, he thinks that I may have had a past life regression, I just remember waking up to him slapping me, apparently I had backed myself into a corner and was screaming hysterically, he asked me questions though this time and recorded the answers I gave and I have read these questions and answers yet it has sparked nothing in my memory.

3) I still get stage fright. I have been performing on the stage from the age of about 7 and I still get bad stage fright before each performance, even if it is just a fashion parade.

4) I still sleep with my teddy bear. My partner thinks I am a little loony, but I have to sleep with Benton Chocolate (the bear) shoved under or near my pillow.

5) I have to read before I go to sleep, even if it is just a page I cannot sleep properly if I don't read.

6) Over half my wardrobe is re-enactment costumes or dress up outfits, scary.

ok now having to tag people

I might do that separately

Sorry this is soooooo icky to look at I still havent figured out how to do alot of stuff on here.

Gots to go now, shall update you on how things go.

M